Dear 26

Dear 26

You are the one I always love and appreciate with all my heart. You, who I always proud of with great joy. You are the one I fought so hard to grow against your world.

I want to tell everyone that you have been really strong so far. Never complain about the turmoil of your thoughts. You are the one who slowly holds back and accepts yourself as you are. Truly.

You are the one who shines more than anything else. You are you who deserve to be loved and accepted by anyone. No one has the right to judge you. Even though the world turns away from you, you are still firm and strong. No one can understand other than you. You have to live for yourself, giving thanks that you have learned and lived to grow in His love.

A journey in chapter 26. Open your eyes that life is like a roller coaster, never easy. Having met 26, may you courageful to discover new things and carry out your plans that have yet to be realized.

Regards,

Your best

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Mixed of Feeling

I'm kind of tired. Everyone has deep worries. When I come to home, I did not find comfort and had mixed emotions. It's really tiring to have this kind of feeling. 

I'm trying to understand everything. I have to understand how my parents feel, I position myself as a child, and force myself to grow up faster as the eldest child. I don't know my parents feelings, maybe they got hurt because of me, I guessed. And, it hurts me to grow up like this too. Sometimes, I have thought that I would choose to die and hurt my worthless self.

However, sometimes I understand the feelings of those who are super tired of everything.

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